TheCruelDementedSarcasm

im on a emotional rollercoaster
titans i try to swim against
put me down on my knees
ive never doubted myself
never would allow myself to
but things are so hard
so difficult to be formed
everything seems to be hitting the curb

well they say life's a bitch....
i thought i was a bigger bitch
tell u what....
its what ive done all this while
ive been arrogant,mean,inconsiderate,cruel,rude and utterly disrespectful..
ive not been a 'model christian'
not that i will ever be,(hopefully i do)
just that i never tried

now the consequences come bite me back in the ass
and i truly regret what ive done,
wish i could mend the hearts ive handed out hurt on
i know,you people out there
think im an insensitive arrogant prick
you think im a total jerk,
with the live and let die approach
and some cold-hearted egoist

what can i say?
its the perception i create without even trying
deep down,if you really knew me
im soft as cotton
and i am a shy person deep down
and im really fragile
and now u know
emotional as well
well what can i say?
the shit ive been through
the criticism i live with
changed who i really am to
to what ive become
and sometimes i wish
circumstances would be different

but for now
i will just make do with what i have
and thank God for it


by the way...all this shit just came out,i never plan my posts...
if you're wondering why its so messed up...